The logistics behind being lonely..

So what i don't have right now is a boyfriend so lets just put it out there haha. I'm not upset at the fact, but this is time for me. So i can work on myself so that i can be the best i can when that special guy comes along. How i see most relationships is that most people are afraid to be alone, so they go and find someone they know can never have a future with just to be in someones arms or to even show off to their friends. Like me for example, i just wanted a guy to distract me from my ever changing life, and when he went away i realized how empty i was, how i put all of my time and energy into drama. Some people just love to get caught up in the drama of not just a relationship, but the drama in life as well. They feed on it, I used to be one of those people..hell i still am, but I've gotten to the point of asking myself..why? In reality when you get into heartless relationships you are blocking the one that you should be with from getting to you.

P.S. - Isn't it funny how we never get the one we want, but we end up with the one we're supposed to have